i am exhausted from recounting the events that came to pass this weekend. i appreciate the concern of good friends, but much of it is difficult to admit even the first time. suffice it to say that it was a paradigm shift from the role that i typically play amongst my friends. add that to the stress of a situation i had neither responsibility for nor control over, and you might understand how i have been quite a distorted mess of heartburn and insomnia.
at this point i think that everything will be ok. at least, that is what everyone keeps telling us.
i can not begin to describe how unnerving it is to have your fate decided right in front of you in a language you can not understand. i have had to rely almost entirely on body language, something that here in korea is often deceptive or counterintuitive. i increasingly discover how handicapped i am by my lack of language skills. however, another great asset has been the support of my bosses and a good korean friend who defended us despite racist allegations against her.
i know that this weekend has been tough. this kind of stuff happens. it happens everywhere. it happens to anyone. i harbor no hostility for korea or its people.
regardless, life is good and i am fine. i love my job and my life here. sometimes a difficult series of events results in something positive. i think i have now paid my dues to the karma gods, so i am anxiously waiting for my positive energy.
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