Where I Stand

One of the major reasons that I haven't been posting a lot lately, aside from pure laziness, is that I have been grappling with the multi-cultural-ness of it all. I am aware that this sounds not only strange but also obvious: a multi-cultural struggle while working in a foreign country? That's surprising. But really, when it comes down to it, there are some paradigm shifts that you simply cannot prepare yourself for and, I'm finding, just may be impossible to adjust to. Of course there are the straightforward changes that one makes--learning the language and digesting the spicy food--and there are the behavioral differences that, however annoying, one grows accustomed to--getting pushed and bumped and cut in line--but these things are not really what I'm driving at. What I mean is the greater, systemic changes that are required in order to live successfully in another culture, the changes that are not obvious until after a level of involvement has been reached.

Like I said, I'm finding that, in the case of Korea at least, I think I am incapable of making these changes because I think it would involve changing who I am and the way that I look at the world. Because of this, I have been at odds with Korea despite the desire to make the most of my time here. I have been struggling to find the words to describe experiences that I only superficially understand, and to explain why I have chosen to stay despite this struggle.

In the next few days I'm going to be writing about these issues more. I feel that you, as my friends, have a right to know what is really going on almost as much as I am finally ready to analyze my own thoughts and feelings about it. Before I get into it, I would like to remind everyone that this may sound overly negative, but I by no means intend to imply that my experience here has been predominantly so. Life, no matter where, has its ups and downs.